Who am I?

I am the most random person you may ever come across, an eclectic mix of old school values and new modern visions in thinking. The past year of my life has forever changed me. I am working on executing and applying the changes I have learned in the past year to hopefully on the road to becoming a better person.

One of many life changing moments recently:

I was at a birthday party a week ago, sitting near the door. A man came through the door in a wheelchair, and I made sure he had plenty of room to maneuver. I smiled at him and he went to the bar to be with his friends. Without making it obvious, I would mildly glance over on occasion, in an effort to ensure he is managing to have a good time with his friends. He ordered a drink, and didn't seem to have very much muscle control. I glanced over again, and saw his lack of coordination had caused him to spill his drink all over the front of his shirt. Clumsily he tried to clean himself up with a towel provided by the bartender. Yet he managed to keep smiling. My friend went up to the bar to the pay the tab. We were hungry and were gonna head out to grab some food. The guy wheeled himself back over to the table, my first assumption being, he was leaving so I tried to make room for him to get by, but it turned out he came over to tell me that he was not trying to make me feel uncomfortable. However, he wanted to tell me the my smile and light heartiness lit up the room and made his night. He apologized to me for "making" me leave because him being in a wheelchair made me uncomfortable. Which was untrue, we had planned to leave previous to our conversation. I assured him it was great to meet him. He told me before I left, "no matter what happens in life keep smiling, its all in your attitude" I left that night feeling like an ungrateful bitch. I am, and I still do feel that way. I need to execute some changes. I started by making a sign to hang on my bathroom mirror everyday to read when I start my day it says "Celebrate today is a new day, be grateful for your family and fabulous friends" It's a small step.. but its a step none the less



Semira